Seize every opportunity

Thanksgivings break is almost over, and school is about to start soon. It is time to go back to reality (NO!!!). On the plus side, it’s the Christmas season, and everybody is so joyous. Also, three more weeks before Christmas break! I guess school won’t be that bad overall. I can survive another three weeks filled with dance concerts and lots of rehearsals…Never mind…it’s going to be hell.

People change…what can we do about it? I just hope the change does not become permanent as they experiment with their life.

To the 2 people I am most thankful for. I’m truly thankful for my parents who brought life to me, supported me, forgiven me, taught me, and loved me. If it were not for their teachings and example, I would be the person I am now. I also want thank their patience as they sit for 3 hours in the parking lot for the past 4 years, waiting for my dance classes to be done. I thank them for having faith in me in school, life, dance. They always give me the greatest advices, and they push me to do better. They have done countless things for me, which I feel obliged to not let them hoping to equal the things they have done. Though I may not like their decisions they make, I know they are beneficial to me. You guys have sacrificed so much for Nini and I that there is no way to give back, except doing the best we can to make you guys proud enough to say, “Those are my girls!” with a beaming smile. Thank you for always being their for me and being my best friends. I love you two so much!

“Dance like no one is watching” is probably the hardest thing to do. When you are onstage, you feel everyone’s eyeballs glued to you. They could be admiring you, judging you, criticizing you, making fun of you, or shunning you. Dancers, including me, are the most self-conscious beings. Why do you think we have to have a mirror in front of us all of the time? We all say it is used to watch to see if we have the right timing with everyone else, but mostly, we need it to see if we look awkward or not, so we can adjust ourselves. In a room full of amazing dancers, that is when the environment is most tense. The “good” dancers dance forever while the “bad” ones hide out in the corner and stand there watching the amazing ones “show off”. We are constantly being judged by teachers, peers, audiences, and even other dancers. This is the first task in becoming a dancer, to overcome this fear, the fear of being judged. When you dance in fear, there is no point in dancing. After you have completed this task, that is when you can truly call yourself a dancer…

I was just watching the incident at UC Davis just now, and the police force’s actions were absolutely ridiculous. Pepper spraying students head on and arresting students would not break up these protests! It would arouse even more people to stand up. The federal government is stupid stupid stupid. They just woke up a woke sleeping beast…

Dear my little sissy,

Thank you for being my bestest best friend ever. I think you may be the only person I trust my secrets with because all my other friends have big mouths. You are really annoying and I want to pull your head off sometimes, but I restrain myself from these violent actions because you’re my sissy. I guess I kinda love you because you told me that you like me only on various days. I also think you’re weird because you scream and run like a psycho. Anyways…you’re a weirdo…

BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE 

I can rock to Adele all day long :)

Stop setting expectations for me.
Stop making me feel small.
Stop pressuring me.
Stop saying hurtful things.
Stop thinking you can control me.

Just stop telling me what to do

and…

let me figure it out for myself.